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“I’ve never fooled anyone. I’ve let people fool themselves. They didn’t bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn’t argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn’t.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe

Oh Marilyn… I sure do have a connection with her. I understand how she felt. How she felt with men especially. And I love her quotes because I resonate so well with them. And majority of my life lessons have all been because of men. I shouldn’t use the word men… Boys. My life lessons have been about boys. But I’m learning! So that’s a good thing. It still hurts, and the memories of pain still linger every day, but I have learned that every lesson that comes to me seeks to awaken me, not punish me. As long as I keep thinking that God or the Universe is trying to punish me, I will be unable to accept my lesson and learn from it.

So I need to be patient. I need to go at my own pace. There is no hurry. Most of my lessons are not achievement-oriented. They are perception-oriented. I don’t need to change myself, change others, or change the world. I need to change my perceptions of self, other, and the world.

So trust becomes a factor. The more I trust my lessons, the more I cooperate with them and the better I learn them. Which right now seems to be the hardest thing in the world to do!

Instead of being suspicious of the un-known, I welcome it. I see how it expands me and makes a deeper place for love to dwell.

So I welcome the un-known, from now on I will use the “un-known” as a way to push past any feelings of doubt, fear, “I-can’t-do-this” attitude. And I will say “Hello un-known! Welcome, lets play.” And I will trust that God has a plan for me. A fantastic, abundant, exciting, loving new world with real people that love me truly. No games. All trust. All love.

I am ready Heavenly Father. Guide me into this healthy living. For I know that you allow our own actions to take us into troubled waters, not to drown us, but to cleanse us.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11

 

In Orbital Bliss,

KiT~